In The Name Of Love

This song's been stuck in my head for awhile now, and I think it's because a huge part of me resonates with the song... the lyrics... the feelings.... the expression... how its portrayed.

Question. Would you do anything "In The Name of Love", even if it meant going against going your own morals, your own conscience, or completely deceiving yourself, and becoming someone who you're not, for someone else, just because you, well, 'love' them?

If I told you this was only gonna hurt
If I warned you that the fire's gonna burn
Would you walk in?
Would you let me do it first?
Do it all in the name of love
Would you let me lead you even when you're blind?
In the darkness, in the middle of the night
In the silence, when there's no one by your side
Would you call in the name of love?

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of, in the name, name
In the name, name

If I told you we could bathe in all the lights
Would you rise up, come and meet me in the sky?
Would you trust me when you're jumping from the heights?
Would you fall in the name of love?
When there's madness, when there's poison in your head
When the sadness leaves you broken in your bed
I will hold you in the depths of your despair
And it's all in the name of love

In the name of love, name of love
In the name of love, name of love

In the name of, in the name, name
In the name, name

I'm a strong feminist (should I say?) One who believes that every Queen has her own right, as much as a guy has; one who believes in justice and equality for ladies as much as every man does. But as strong as I may seem, I may be, I'm still what I am, a girl.

And like every girl, I too fall in love & out of love. I have crushes on, I feel infatuation, I like, I have interests. I wanna feel adored and loved too. 

But there's this one thing, which I sometimes hate myself for.

[To conform to the ridiculous and absurd standards of today's society, that is considered "normal".]

What is "normal" you may ask?

To be busty, to have an ass, to have a small waist, to be SKINNY, to be SLIM to have perfect skin, to be beautiful, to be tall and graceful(which I am obviously not), to be elegant and pretty, to carry yourself flawlessly, to not screw up, to not be a dork, to not make yourself look stupid or funny.

I feel like I have to LOSE WEIGHT, SLIM DOWN, GAIN A BETTER ASS, HAVE A BETTER FIGURE, in order to feel confident... In order to feel more confident... to love someone... to love someone better... someone out of my league...

You need to be at least a 8/10(above avg), if you wanna get that 20/10(OUT OF YOUR LEAGUE) FML

It's like if you want him/her, you gotta be or act a certain way.

I hate it.

It disgusts me, absolutely.

And yet, I have this thinking in my head.

When people see this extrovert, bubbly and confident personality, they love me. And I'm ever so grateful.

But sometimes, it not like that. I'm not like that all the time.

I feel insecure, I feel upset too, I feel embarrassed, I feel unworthy, I feel like I'm not good enough, or rather never good enough.

I know I'm not exactly making a point, but I guess what I wanna say is,

I think I need to stop thinking so negatively.

Maybe yeah, I'll do diets, I'll do exercises, I'll work out and lose a few pounds.

But at the end of the day, I need to tell myself that I'm doing it for me. 

Not for anyone else. Not for him or her.

Just like how applying make-up to feel confident; to do it for yourself & not any other person.

Xoxo, till next time.

Contented

If you ever only chase after materialistic aspects, you can never be truly happy or satisfied in life. Be content, feel blessed. You are only as content, as you think you are. Be Happy, Be Free, Be You. 💁🏼

-Xoxo-

Sometimes, I think back, and that's where; that's when it hurts most.

I hate how you made me feel, I hate how this makes me feel.

Don't do this to anyone, no one deserves to die when they have not lived.

And most of all, I don't know why I'm so stupid,

to even be thinking about it,

to be so hung up on us,

when you don't even give a damn.

Let me be okay, Let me feel okay.

Xoxo.

Taiwan Trip

Hi All !

As usual, my apologies for neglecting this space. A lot has happened, anddd I have officially graduated from TP! 

Sigh' 
Time really does fly, and I love reminiscing on all good and bad memories; such a sense of nostalgia...

Went to Taiwan 4 years back, can you imagine how long it has been since then?
And I am only uploading photos now, can you imagine how lazy af I am?!?! HAHA. 

On to the photos !!!

Yes, I know I have yet to upload photos for all my other trip as well. But as you all know, I'm hella lazy. So y'all will just have to wait :)

Kthnxbaiiii

"There are moments when you fall to ground, but you are stronger than you feel you are now

You don't always have to speak so loud, no,

Just be as you are.

Life is not always a comfortable ride, everybody's got scars that they hide,

And everybody plays the fool sometimes,

Just be as you are."

 -Xoxo-

Main Exam Woes | V'day

Currently mugging for my Main Exams, 1 paper down, 1 more to go. Can't wait to reunite with my girls; they've been giving me strength since upsetting Vday'16, which they always make me feel better. 

Celebrated Our XiaoShishi's B'day, but I didn't get any photos with the Birthday Girl :( Oh well, I see her all the time anyway HAHAHA

Can't wait to be done with my exams and done with Poly in general. Bitter-sweet feelings about heading to Uni so soon, but I guess I'll manage, and just pray very, very hard to meet nice people and make new good friends there. 

Should be studying, so WTH am I still doing here. Time for me to GTFO. Till next time!

"And when the lights start flashing like a photobooth, 

And the stars exploding, we'll be fireproof,

My youth, my youth is yours,

Trippin' on skies, sippin' waterfalls,

My youth, my youth is yours, 

Runaway now & forevermore"

- Xoxo